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Last Monday, I said goodbye to my old job where I spent the last two and a half years. It was home, a place where I’d gotten extremely comfortable with those around me and what I was doing. When time came and I accepted a new job, I couldn’t believe that I only had a number of days left with the people I’d grown so close to. I spent my final day at work with a big smile, appearing positive, and my goodbyes were lovely. There was so much love, but it was with a heavy heart that I left. It was with promises of keeping in touch and visiting, but I knew deep down how hard that would be.
Goodbyes have never been easy for me. Maybe it’s a Scorpio thing, but I tend to get attached and have difficulty letting go. It’s the finality of it -- the feeling that once I let go, I will never get it back again. What if I regret it? What if I shouldn't have let it completely go?
This is where I try to remind myself that life evolves and change is inevitable. After all, a new job is what I’ve been wanting, screaming, and fighting for for the past 5 months. Now that I finally got it, I was hesitant at first. I thought that I wasn’t ready and needed more time. But that’s just the thing, isn’t it? We’re never going to be 100% ready for anything. We just have to jump all in and hope for the best.
Last Thursday, I said hello to my new job, a place where I’ll be for the foreseeable future. Walking in on my first day, I was immediately welcomed by people who I could see myself getting comfortable with and close to. And then after spending my first two days there, I have a gut feeling that it’s going to be home.
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